Last week the author spoke to us about the Lord’s Prayer. He was making a point about how it would disrupt our carefully constructed lives and move us into a very uncomfortable place where we don’t have control.
This week the author shifts us to a close look at “Thou art the Man” and the type of person Nathan the prophet was to deliver such a message.
The Lord has shown me some things this week that pertain to the lesson from last week and and important aspect of this weeks lesson. So I will have 2 entries this week. Todays’ entry is Week 19 Part Deux!
This week I am on a very difficult trip covering 4 states in 5 days. The nature of the trip forces me to fly. I don’t’ like flying anymore because of my arm and the hassle airport travel is in today’s world. Nevertheless, I am flying this week. The itinerary is a very complicated one as you can imagine. 10 Flights in 5 different airports have to land and take off within a very narrow window for me to be able to get it done. I don’t like this type of trip, it makes me nervous. While sitting in row 15 seat B on a plane I’d never heard of, I started thinking about travel and why it makes me nervous. Now I don’t know that the Lord was in Seat 15 A or it could have been 15 B, but it seemed like it. It is a control issue. When flying I don’t have control of much of anything. On this trip I had less than any control of anything. I was worried about connections. I was worried about the rental car and directions in Des Moines (which I drove to the wrong one anyway). I was worried because they took the bag I had my computer in and stored it someplace where I wasn’t. So as I sat there and thought about it, I sensed the Lord’s presence. I realized I had a choice to make. I could worry about things I have no control over, or I could relax and trust God to cover me. Which was I going to do? As I thought about it, I smiled and said (to no one in particular) “Traveling with me is not an adventure is it Lord?” I said that because I realized I so carefully structure my life and my travel schedule to remove as much uncertainty as possible. That’s why I can drive all over the country and usually tell you within a few minutes of when I will be where. As soon as I said that, I heard “Not much fun either!” I started laughing out loud in seat 15 B. He was right. I don’t allow time for fun anymore. I’m way too serious. If you would travel with me, I don’t smell the roses so to speak, I’m all business. The problem is I’m not just that way with business. I’m that way in all aspects of my life. I simply don’t allow for uncertainty. At least I do everything I can to minimize it and if there is a choice to make, I will always make the choice with the less certainty in it.
There is new freedom on the horizon. It is full of excitement, wonder and chaos (as I see it). I’ll keep you posted on my success in navigating these new waters!
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